January 25^th, 2007

To see her again is a breath of fresh air. A sight for these sore eyes, which are distraught watchin my petty life just wane in front of me. Things start happening in side of me which brings me hope fills me up with energy and more importantly ecstasy. To hear my name come from those lips, beckoning me just to dream of a life that I thought was shut off in a fairy tale. To touch those fingers that held me more than just my hand, as a gesture of formality. The smell of her designer perfume overpowering all senses and stimulus from the nearby vicinity.

I live to forget to start afresh but there are “things” that don’t let me do so. I wake up to the taste of her in my mouth just to see that I am all alone. Pathetic , pathetic that is wat I tell myself. Ur pathetic in capital italicised bold and underlined letters. In reality, as per this society I’m majoring in business administration, whatever that means. But the reality of my consciousness I am researching on patheticness (if that is a word) ps if it aint then im applyin for a patent. Rahul bose in PKSE said men need to listen to sad songs to make them cry. But my dead insides devoid on any tears needs nothing more than a memory as a mere stimulus to open the cascade of lachrymal secretions that I deemed depleted.

This world is cruel, its cruel and unjust and completely devoid of any sentiment for the lonely. Valentines, flower day, chocolate day, is it just another way to rub it in. Mockin in our face as if to say that I am a freak an abnormality of nature which deemed this state on to me. Look at that guy, cant even get a date on the new years. In the movies the guy who takes his cousin to the prom, at least he gets his girl in around 2 hrs. When does that happen in real life? Fuckers make big money by supplyin us with bucket full of bull and then secretly , behind our backs relax with a beer in hand and mock at us.

Tell me o mighty one when does this barrage of insults end, when will single and “non-single” people be treated equally. And then there are the married ones. You know the only thing married people have is a guaranteed workin dick and a wallet to boast of. Don’t take me wrong its not that people who aint married have a properly functioning dick but marriage is just a way of proving it to the world.

So I end today’s ramblings and scepticism by saying no matter what you will never be happy “single” or “committed” or even “married”. So if your thinking to jump into any relation or break up then do it now coz then you would never know how things would have turned out if you would have had remained the same. Ok on a more serious note if ur facin such a dilemma then ask your self which would make u less miserable and ah yes if ur decision is based on the fact that he / she is better off without you just coz ur her main source of pain and agony then “u better get selfish man cz u ll end up feelin like shit” other wise go on the les miserable theory.

Peace out