to forgive yet not to forget



I write in the nothingnesss tht envelops me in the void ppl like to call as my life. they say "zindagi ch kadi vi udaas ni rehna chahida" .. wat is one to do when u feel nothing but "udaasiness" in this stinkhole of what "i" call as the exaggeration of space-time continuum. Life in a broader sense of living points out companionship as a fickle part of a symbiont relation which lasts not more than the moment when the purpose of one of the partner is fullfilled or in human psyche jargon when one gets shit bored of the other.... but this is just a mere genralisation. I am but a cynic in this planet damning every one to the hell of "relationship status: single" . In reality, contrasting all my jibberish there is a sweet innocent existence of a myth called " true love" which has a very naughty almost "puck like" character ... disappearin in and out of reality , playin tricks and keepin the myth alive by showin it only to a selct few, maybe to those who deserve it the least while in while givin it a "el dorado" kind of a mystical presence, which makes every man and woman running after it.

but to me its nothing more than the carrot on a stick in front of a donkey just to make sure it goes faster ...... People are very amusing creatures.. as Shakespeare once said " nature hath created strange people in her time" even though the are aware of all evils/ vices related to it , the still run after it as hounds after that stupid dummy rabbit at the tracks. what is it that .. oh i get it now.. its the forbidden fruit syndrome... that makes it mystical enuff for u to go tail wagging and tongue hanging after it.... they say keep ur love life mystical and him/her squirm for ur attention .... if it was attention wat i was after then i d either join the army( standin in attention all day - i knw bad joke) or i would join the circus( a-la raj kapoor in mera naam joker)

my thoughts are to provoke the blind existence every one so dreamily follows but it does the opposite, it just makes u psycho - analyse my inner depths which actually r the least of my worries and interests. if at all u ppl think im a scorned warrior in the battle of love which i lost .. then u r wrong .. al what i have lost is ..... me